the black & white truth

Traditions

2012-01-21T11:36:00.005-06:00

I'm a girl of traditions!

We open presents on Christmas Eve, even at 11pm after all day on the road!
We grew up with pizza on Friday night, hamburgers on Saturday followed by Hee Haw and pancakes on Sunday mornings.
We ordered vanilla milkshakes and tater tots on Friday night at Sonic.
We go to the country for the weekend and chop wood.
We eat the same restaurant for lunch after church almost every Sunday.
We attend the same party year after year.
We watch The Bachelor/ette on Monday nights.
We have lunch during school-year breaks.

We have a Christmas ornament exchange, we go to Prom and we love small towns! One of my favorite traditions is a twice-a-year get together with my college besties in the fields of Antiques Week!

Yes, there is a great Thursday night Prom, fun music, dancing, shopping, delicious food, cowboy boots and cold beer, but those aren't the things I love the most about our tradition.

We road trip to meet up at our hostess' home and getting ready is half the fun of our evening. Sharing jewelry, clothes, style tips, curling irons, hairspray and lip gloss just like we did 15 years ago as college girls getting ready to go out for a night of dancing. Driving down back roads, stopping for pictures in the bluebonnets, catching up on our families and life in person vs. texts/email, and laughing or crying with each other through the current stage of life. We aren't even to the 'event'; but my heart is full and these are precious memories with girls I dearly cherish in my life. Their advice, encouragement, unconditional acceptance and friendship is a gift in my life! The twilight Prom is an unforgettable evening every Spring and Fall and then we head on the road home again. Determining if we will leave in time to make it to the non-24-hour-small-town Whataburger, go a little further to the 24-hour-slightly-larger-town Whataburger, order a pizza from Wildcat or cook up some snacks when we get home. We stay up late laughing and re-counting who we saw, the outfits from outrageous to glamorous and the deals we found shopping squeezing every minute out of our time together.

Friday we get to attend Mass and hear sweet voices of Catholic School children including my bestie's handsome boys reading Scripture and we are reminded that we're not only friends by chance, but friends uniquely tied together by our faith as well and believe put in each other's lives for a purpose. We always get breakfast tacos and a fountain drink to hit the road back to peruse the fields for a good find. We love signs that have a good saying, reminding us what's important in life on display in our homes. We make friends with vendors we see year after year, even visiting some of them when it's not Antiques Week. We stand in line awaiting a mouth-watering grilled chicken sandwich worth every minute of that wait and arguably the best you'll ever have. In between we are always chattering about something, laughing, sharing dreams, looking at houses and land along the way, talking about our goals and life in general, sharing secrets.

All too soon we head home relishing in the memories, sometimes even meeting down the road at Sonic for a Happy Hour drink before we really have to head in different directions on the highway. These girls fill me up. Traditions that are etched in my heart for a lifetime and friends I know stand the test of time no matter the circumstances going on in life. Just when you feel like it will be too long before we're all together again, it's Christmas and our annual Ornament Exchange is the perfect break in the holiday rush.

Is it April yet?!

Thank you friends for traditions!

Angie

Start Marriage Right - Post 2

2012-01-06T14:32:00.000-06:00

Here is a link to my next post for Start Marriage Right.

http://www.startmarriageright.com/2011/12/needy/

This post is from the depths of my heart, and I know resonates with so many singles (heck maybe even marrieds) my age, if there's someone you know that needs to be encouraged, please share. Also, encourage the men in your life to be leaders and to lead well! Hope you enjoy! Would love your feedback and comments.

Fasting

2011-12-13T15:16:00.000-06:00

Last week I participated in a fast with my church, Monday through Friday we skipped lunch opting instead to read the Word, pray and seek God's direction for our lives and our church. I haven't done a fast in several years, and in times past I could only think about what I was going to eat instead of really being able to pray through the day because it was a day long fast. I was grateful for our Pastor's grace in directing us to have a snack as well in the afternoon. :)
Several things I learned through the week ..

Monday - I was hungrier than I have been in a long time and starting around 10am. I don't usually even eat lunch until 12:30, so I was certain it was the enemy trying to thwart my efforts. I was acutely aware of my need for God on a daily basis and realized how my soul hungers and thirsts for Jesus, when I fail to nurture my relationship with Him.

Tuesday - In the sermon our Pastor preached prior to the fast, he mentioned that fasting is praying with expectancy of things to come. As the year 2011 is coming to a close, I'm ready to wrap it up and put it behind me. This has been an exceptional year in many ways, though there are always a few events you want to put behind you and move forward from. I truly began to have a stirring in my heart for 2012 and great expectancy for what God will do in our church and in our lives individually.

Wednesday - Each day our church posted a blog for the day to give scripture and topic to consider during prayer time. Wednesday's topic was being aware that God is always speaking to us. Even when we begin to doubt, question or fear we have been abandoned, God continues to speak to us and He is always in pursuit of us - individually and corporately as the church. The problem with feeling like God isn't speaking doesn't lie with Him - it lies with me and my listening. I need to initiate my own fasting throughout the year, to slow down and listen.

Thursday - The word "fasting" began to make me think - really, we are "slowing".   I am fortunate to live close to home and enjoy eating lunch at home most days of the week. This week changed up my routine as I sat on my couch, reading and writing. I wasn't fitting in errands, catching up on my DVR, texting with friends, preparing for evening activity or reading magazines during lunch. I was sitting. Still. I need to do that more often with my focus on the One thing that matters most in this life.

Friday - I worked straight through lunch and was tired after having events to attend Wednesday and Thursday nights. Hunger wasn't really even on my mind. I did think several times through the lunch hour while at my desk about how important it is to do my job and do it well. My heart and my intentions are reflected in my work, thus reflecting who Jesus is to me and how I want others to see Him in me.   When I got home I did finish my week of reading and journaling - thinking on how I can use this week to meet needs of others and more importantly remembering it doesn't matter the time of day, I need to slow down and let God speak.

If you are in a rut, feeling down, over-committed, holiday stress or otherwise frustrated in life - be encouraged. Take some YOU time, you and Jesus. Slow down, be still, pray protection over your heart and mind. He hears you and is waiting for you.

John 6:35 - Jesus said to them, "I am the bread of life; whoever comes to me shall not hunger, and whoever believes in me shall never thirst.

Blessings,
Angie

Start Marriage Right - Post 1

2011-12-09T16:27:00.000-06:00

My first article was published this week on Start Marriage Right. Check it out and leave a comment on their site if you wish!

http://www.startmarriageright.com/2011/12/expectations/

Walking

2011-11-17T13:04:00.002-06:00

It is time again ... my third trip to walk in a 3-Day (www.the3day.org) event for Breast Cancer Research, my second time to walk in San Diego! I'm excited for the trip.
Every year we participate in this walk I have so many thoughts as the days near to leave on our journey ...

I am thankful for my health and that I am able to walk 60 miles in honor and memory of those who can't

I am reminded of my friends, family of friends, and friends who have been impacted in their circles by Breast Cancer

I am grateful for those who so generously contribute to make this journey possible. I represent you every step of the way.

I am hopeful that one day Breast Cancer won't be a concern among women, that my nieces and daughters of my friends might not face this disease

I am prayerful for safety throughout the trip - flights, on the walk, in camp and against any injury

I am encouraged by a SURVIVOR on our team, and looking forward to getting to know her better and the work she is doing through Komen

I am proud to be a part of an event that is making a difference in the lives of women across our country

A walk for me always is representative of everyday life. You have to get up, get into your gear - whatever that looks like for you, and hit the pavement to accomplish your task one foot in front of the other. For these 3 days, my task is to walk 60 miles, camp out at night, and make a difference in a cause. When I get home, my task returns to normal, however the mission remains the same. To walk everyday in faith, in thankfulness, and in obedience to what I have been called.

"Dear friend, I pray that you may enjoy good health and that all may go well with you, even as your soul is getting along well. It gave me great joy to have some brothers come and tell about your faithfulness to the truth and how you continue to walk in the truth. I have no greater joy than to hear that my children are walking in the truth." 3 John 1:2-4

Step by step,
Angie

The Letter B

2011-10-27T22:24:00.003-05:00

Several little topics have been on my mind lately and I realized they are all "b" words ... "Better"; "Besties"; "Books"; "Busy"; "Bayou City" ... so, why not a post on the Letter B?

BETTER

I don't like comparisons. Don't get me wrong, I like good honest competition and I think lessons of winning and losing are important in life. However, it seems we are constantly comparing ourselves to something we are not, and fail to recognize the uniqueness that we are.   The media is saturated with ways to make ourselves "better"; both men and to women.   This summer Beth Moore asked via Twitter "Does the word "better" have a positive or negative connotation to u?" and it really got me thinking. I responded "first thought would be negative b/c I feel like it's always used in comparison terms." Of course, I had to keep it to 140 characters or less on Twitter, hence an extended internal dialog for me about the word "better" for a couple of months now.

What is really "better"?   Life ? Job? Financial position? Relationship with significant other/spouse/family? Home? Friendships?   Health?

And, what would really change if those areas were better? Would you change? Or would your perception of your position in this world change? If we are looking for a change in position, we will never measure up, there will always be something which will lead us down a path of lies to believe we are still inferior.

For myself, I don't want to be better, I want to be content.  Sometimes, to be content there are things in life that need to change, which will ultimately make our life better.  However, implementing those changes with the end goal being intent to be better than _________ versus content with self will never prove satisfactory. If there is something that needs to change in your life, do it to be a better YOU, not to be better than!

BESTIES

October is always a hard month for me, I've written about it here and this year seemed a little harder, as 5 years have gone by since the passing of my bestie Amy. The season change always makes me wish for her; a patio was our favorite place to discuss life. I was at a concert recently where Justin Moore performed, singing his song "If Heaven Wasn't So Far Away", definitely makes me wish I could go for the day and sit on a patio for one more afternoon visit.

I've realized more and more through the years how valuable my besties are in my life. I hope they know what they mean to me, it is important to me to know what is going on in their lives, to remember details and to follow up on events big and small in the every day. As a "single girl" my besties are extension of my family and knowing they are praying me through a hard day, a hard season and they also rejoice with me in victories is one of the greatest blessings of my life.

BOOKS

Speaking of Besties, I'm currently reading Mile Markers by Kristin Armstrong. One of the best books I've read about women, friendships of women, faith and running the race of life together both metaphorically and literally. I've had my hi-lighter out and marked something on about every other page at least.

I am a jogger at best, I don't run to compete. I run for exercise, because I enjoy it (up to about 5 miles) and to reset myself. This book points out several things about running that are metaphors for life. Here's a couple of my hi-lights ...

"I want to leave behind things like any form of lingering guilt, any resentments, any relationships that weigh me down, any worries that hold me back, any old definitions of myself that I've outgrown, any fears that limit my view. And, I want to run ahead, into beautiful things, like freedom, friendship, contentment, joy, love and understanding"

Running ... "thinking about the things that matter to me, the things I will fight for, the things I will lay it all down for. The things that rise to the top of my heart and overflow. The moments when I don't care what anyone thinks. At. All."

"Running restores my equilibrium, quiets the noise within, re-prioritizes my list, repairs my state of gratitude, and returns me to myself, but a better version, nice and roomy in my own skin."

If you're a woman (or heck, a guy could probably benefit as well) single, married, single-again, parent - I think you would find some truth in this book.

BUSY

When I was growing up we never said the word "bored" because if you were bored there was always something that Mom could give you to do. The task usually was equivalent to a chore. I still don't ever say "I'm bored". I really never am, but if I ever feel sorry for myself that I have nothing to do, I quickly look around and realize I could dust, or vacuum or some other task that needs to be done. Amazingly I'm not bored, and the dust rag doesn't move.

As an adult everyone has become "busy". A few years ago I took "busy" out of my vocabulary. I am the one in charge of my schedule and the activities I participate in are mostly all voluntary. So, if I find I am overwhelmed, I have control to simplify my schedule and to free up time for something or someone who deserves my time. I learned this most with my family and thoroughly enjoy and appreciate the time I get to spend with my Littles (nephew and nieces), brother and my parents as well as my extended family when the opportunity arises.

At the end of the day we all choose how to spend our time and ultimately that is a reflection of what is important in our lives. I never want someone to think I'm "too busy" to be available in a time of need. Take "busy" out of your vocabulary and re-prioritize if necessary. This applies to families too - if there are too many activities that cover your calendar and there is never family time, the calendar might need to be adjusted. I am thankful for the activities I did participate in while growing up which were numerous, but more thankful for the consistency of eating supper together as a family.  Family time was a priority in our home and I believe contributed greatly to who I am today. Learning to say "no" without guilt was one of the greatest lessons of my life and one of the most freeing.

BAYOU CITY

After 11 years in the same church, which I can't even count the ways I have loved that church as there are too many, I have been in a season of needing a difference in my church life. I crave simple and smaller as I age, a one light town continues to call my name but that is a story for another time. As I have been visiting Bayou City Fellowship, I have thoroughly enjoyed a smaller congregation, singing Hymns which remind me of the church I grew up in, worshiping with young and old and teaching that matches my learning style - ultimately challenging me deeply to be obedient to the Scriptures.

Maybe organized church isn't your thing, or maybe you're needing a change in church, or maybe you haven't been in a while. More than anything church is Community. It's where I've met a lot of my Besties, it keeps me in the most important Book of all, it's kept me busy in seasons that I needed activity, and ultimately has made me a better person who is more content day by day. Everyone needs community, I would encourage you to look one up in your neighborhood and give it a try.

As I write tonight, a cold front is blowing through Texas, I welcome the change in season and hope Fall will stick around. Seasons change and life changes, it's good to evaluate, or go for a run if that's your thing, and work out where you are. Reset priorities if necessary, make some changes, say "no", try something new, get out of the everyday box.   I always feel refreshed with the start of a new season.

Blessings,
Angie

Wait.

2011-09-25T21:13:00.002-05:00

Know those people in life who everything seems to happen for them as they wish in perfect timing? Me too. I'm not one of those people. It is somewhat of a joke amongst my friends that everything in life for me includes a "wait". I don't mean wait in theory, I mean a literal response that includes the word "wait" either spoken or written.

In 2009 while unemployed, I can't count the number of times I heard "wait". Not only related to a job, but to seemingly every circumstance in my life there is a wait. So, what is it about waiting that can make me crazy, unsettled, question, lose confidence and believe something will never work out in my favor?

I've recently been reminded about waiting as I have sat hours alongside family in the hospital watching Brian as he laid in critical condition, came out of unconsciousness and began to heal. Brian is the little brother of my growing up best friend Wendy. Brian's not so little anymore as he's now 30 and stands over 6' tall. He was just 15 when Wendy was killed in a car accident and their family is 2nd family to me, still 15 years later. When I got the call while away on a Birthday-Weekend-Get-Away with my besties, I didn't know what circumstance would await upon my arrival at the hospital.

It seemed every day we were told to wait ... wait for a test, wait for a Dr, wait for a x-ray, wait for results, wait for body to heal ... all while sitting in the waiting room. Oxymoron!? When visiting a patient in ICU the visitor has to "scrub in" each visit, washing hands, donning a gown and gloves and "scrub out" upon exit, only to repeat anytime you entered the area. We sought answers from Doctors and prayed and waited. Brian was miraculously spared severe injury, despite multiple broken bones, major surgery and unknown recovery time. While we waited, I prayed that God would heal him, that his spirits would be lifted and that he would know purpose for his life. I am still praying those things, 6 weeks later tonight that I prayed on that first night. He still has a long wait to recovery.

One thing we started while in the hospital was to journal the day, what we had been told by Drs, what tests were going on, what questions we had and ultimately finishing each day with "Good News". It is amazing to take time in the uncertainty to recall the blessings. Some days the good news was "no fever today"; other days it was "no change today"; for sometimes no progress is progress in itself. Until you take time to reflect, you might miss status-quo as being good news.

What I have learned and am learning to this day as I am still sitting in the waiting room of a few areas of my life is that it matters most what you do with the right now. Even while I'm waiting, I have a purpose, I have things to get done and I have more things than I can count to be thankful for. In effect, I have to get up, scrub in and scrub out each day. I don't always know how it's going to work out. Sometimes it will work out better than I could have imagined - it did recently for me. Sometimes it seems there is no possible way for it to work out, like all the cards are against you - but it still does work out. Sometimes it doesn't work out and there is lesson to be learned. Despite the wait, I can't let doubt steal my joy. When I begin to doubt or lose my confidence to mere circumstance, mostly out of my control I remember: "The one true God gives me strength; He removes the obstacles in my way." (Psalm 18:32 NET) Thankfully, I am not in control and the more I submit to ultimate authority of Jesus, the less I worry in the wait. The obstacles may or may not be removed, and maybe they were there for a purpose, perhaps to redirect or to stall.

I do know that despite the wait, I always have much to be thankful for. As I sit here tonight, I am thankful in this day alone ...

for a healthy body that I pushed on a morning jog
for a church that taught a word that I will soak on this week, and weeks to come
for Sunday lunch with my besties
for a Sunday nap
for a good book to discuss while walking with one of my besties
for my family and a lengthy phone visit with my Mom
for a home that I enjoy and kitchen to make supper
for a job that I don't dread going to in the morning
for plans this week that I am looking forward to

and the list could go on ...

So, even when it seems nothing is working out, and the wait is eternal, scrub in and focus on the day ahead, close out the day with recognizing the good news, rest and be ready to scrub in again for the next day. For one day the wait will be over. Most likely though, there will be something else to wait on, so remember to use time wisely and seek out purpose in the wait.

Waiting,
Angie

Letting Go

2011-06-22T21:32:00.001-05:00

Tonight's to-do list:
- ~~Trash Out~~
- ~~Laundry~~
- ~~Cook supper~~
- ~~Workout~~
- ~~Mail stack~~
- ~~Balance checkbook~~
- Blog

I often have topics that I want to capture to remember or share on my blog and without putting it on my to-do list, it seems that weeks get away before I'm writing again!

I taught in my Bible study class a couple of weeks ago from Jeremiah 2 - 6 which at first reading seemed to be a lecture similar to something you might have heard as a teenager reiterating the same things over and over again. Why won't you change, give up what goes against what I have taught and promised you? However, there is a pattern in Scripture where before there is a "lecture" there is always a request - "return to me" or "come to me". No matter what we have done/are currently engaged in we are never too far away from God for him to not request and desire for us to return to him.

In the particular verses I was teaching the Northern and Southern Kingdoms were engaged in idolatry and not willing to give up their idols, even though they had been consistently promised a better life if they were obedient. Something I would liken to holding on to what you know, strictly based on fear of the unknown, no matter what the consequence might be in the interim. Sometimes it might be fear of the past or believing by holding on to whatever it is now will change the outcome.

I have always had an appreciation for children and the lessons in faith that come from them. Recently I was at my parents with my nephew who was not quite four. He had been out to ride horses with Papa and was riding one of the oldest horses in the barn, Paint. He got to the top of the pond and Paint stumbled and caught him off guard, and he slid off the side. He wasn't hurt, more stunned and understandably fearful to get back on. When he got back to the front of the pasture, I got him from my Dad and he was recounting the story to me. I told him about when I was thrown from a horse, that his Daddy had been thrown from a horse, that Papa had been thrown - heck, even his Great Grandma had been thrown, though he never knew her. I told him about always having to pay attention to the horse when you're riding, even when Papa is leading you, you have to be paying attention and holding on. All that happened that day was a simple stumble, which caught him off guard. He is really into Rodeo and Cowboys right now, so quickly could relate his story and told it with great zeal a little later. Ultimately we asked him to get back on Paint and ride him into the barn, I would walk beside him and he would get off when we got to the barn. He was hesitant at first, but knowing the lesson that if you fall off, you have to get back on and ride, we knew it was important for him to ride again immediately. He agreed and rode into the barn just like a Cowboy.

As I was recounting the story of when I got thrown to him it all came back to me just like it was a few minutes before he fell off. I was riding my horse Pal, we were at the Ranch where our horses were boarded and my whole family was out for a ride a decent distance from the barn. Pal never liked water and would frequently "hop" over water when he saw it. This instance he didn't see green/marshy water that looked like grass, and I was relaxed enjoying our Saturday ride. Pal jumped as soon as his foot hit that water and I went right off the side of him landing hard on the ground. I was certain I had broken my arm and was unable to ride back. I didn't. And, after much convincing and the patience of my Dad, I got back on and rode back to the barn.

A couple of weeks later we were back at my parents and my nephew was out to ride again, this time on Sugar. All of the dogs were trailing us, or really my Dad because they are his shadow, and Sugar became annoyed with them. Just like we talked about my nephew was holding on and paying attention, but I was at his side, should he need me. Sugar had enough of the dogs and began to turn in circles and I immediately reached for my nephew to get him off. He was holding on so tight that even with my arms around him and telling him to "let go" he wasn't letting go. He IS a cowboy. He did finally let go and I held him for a few minutes while Papa worked Sugar in the round pen to iron out her crankiness.

I began to think about how often in life we hold onto circumstance, things or people out of fear and the unknown. When really, God has given us the direction needed to overcome anything in His ultimate love no matter what happens in the temporal of this world. He just asks that we surrender into his arms, and believe without a doubt that He will catch us. Though how we will be caught isn't always known, the promise of His love is never going to fail. Sometimes choices and circumstance have consequence, but that doesn't mean we can't get back up and ride.

A couple of my favorite verses so perfectly display this love ... "Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is esay, and my burden light." Matthew 11:28-30

Isn't that usually where we are, so exhausted by our own intiatives and wills, that we just want to surrender, but are afraid to give in which might seem like giving up. It is my prayer that when I am asked to let go or disciplined by my Heavenly Father I would be confident in his love for me that I would let go and trust that he will catch me, even in times that it seems I am doing everything right and shouldn't have to let go. My hope for you is that you will fall confidently into the loving embrace of a Father who treasures you and knows the absolute best for you even when you can't fathom how He could catch you or change what you're holding onto. I know I will always be able to get up and get back on and ride because of forgiveness, grace and ultimate unfailing love.

Blessings,
Angie

- ~~Blog~~

I've been told I'm Versatile!

2011-06-16T23:59:00.002-05:00

Thank you to Blair over at "Oh, you know ..."; I've been told I'm a versatile blogger! Thanks Blair for your consistent encouragement on my blog, and I will try to write more consistently. :) Hop over and read Blair's blog here (sorry, I might only be sending my Mom over to you); she has taught me about tennis, major/minor league baseball and a faithful love to her husband through unknown and winding roads as they start their life together as one!

When receiving this award you're to share 7 facts about yourself, and since I recently gave a lot of facts about myself here I thought I would just toss out 7 random things on my mind as of late ...

(1) Polarized Sunglasses .... Who knew?! I know my friends who spend a lot of time on the Gulf have talked about their sunglasses for a long time, and I knew polarized lenses have great benefit to protecting the eye. I finally got a pair and did get to try them out while on the gulf this year Memorial Day weekend, and WOW - what a difference! All we caught that day were some throw backs and a good time; thanks to my friends who baited my hook w/ some nasty squid and casting for me into the wind! I should note that I am not entirely helpless with a fishing pole and bait bucket; having wade fished a few times all on my own! I will make an investment one day in a good pair, maybe like one of these; but for now my Academy specials are changing the way I see summer 2011!

(2) True Grit ... I'm no movie buff, and certainly will lose in any movie lines contest, but I usually have a list of movies I want to see that I missed while at the theatre and try to catch on DVD. True Grit is one of those movies. I've seen the original, as John Wayne was a hero in my house growing up; so I want to see the new version. All westerns in my book are stack ranked against Tombstone (Here's one line I do remember ... "I'm your huckleberry"), so we'll see how this one ranks.

(3) Duets ... I've always loved duets, maybe it comes from growing up in church and the "special music" often times being a duet, but I think a duet brings such a cool element to a song. There seems to be a lot of new ones out right now, a couple that I have on my iPod, but a couple more I need to get. Here are a few that I'm currently turning up when I catch them on the radio or they come up on my iPod ...

-- Carrie Underwood and Brad Paisley ~ "Remind Me" (I would also like her legs)

-- Kenny Chesney and Grace Potter ~ "You and Tequila"

-- Jason Aldean and Kelly Clarkson ~ "Don't You Wanna Stay"

-- Kid Rock and Sheryl Crow ~ "Collide"

-- Joey and Rory ~ "Born to Be Your Woman"

-- Josh Abbott and Kacey Musgrove ~ "Oh, Tonight"

-- EllenOwen - from The Voice; haven't checked them out on iTunes yet for a specific song

(4) Wal-Mart ... I grew up in a small town, and if you grew up in a small town, you have an appreciation for a GOOD Wal-Mart! Much to my delight, a new one has opened just a short distance from my house and I spent a good hour plus on a recent evening scoping it out! Sometimes, you never knew you needed ______________, until you went to Wal-Mart and found it!

(5) Good books ... My Mom is a Librarian and so reading you would think comes naturally to me; however reality is quite the contrary! I did sell quite a collection of Cliff Notes at the conclusion of my College days, but have since developed a true love for reading - surprising even myself! Some of my favorites as of late have been Lone Survivor, Water for Elephants, The Help, Secret Life of Bees, Summer at Tiffany's and of course a Nicholas Sparks thrown in for balance from time to time. I just started Unbroken and can't wait to get further into it!

(6) Organization ... I've often been described as organized, neat or clean in reference to my house, my calendar, my drawers, files on the computer, etc.. I'm "Type A" in that regard and it's a level of efficiency for me! Organization really isn't as hard as some folks think ... here's my tip to anyone who's currently struggling: everything has a place. So, put things away and your space will look instantly tidy and the cluttered feeling will go away. Maybe I will blog more tips on a "Tidy Life" one day, after all I did say I wanted to be more consistent in blogging, so various topics might help me deliver!

(7) Punctuation ... Not only is my Mom a Librarian, but she was an English major in her Undergrad, so proper writing was a point of contention growing up when she would review my papers. In the "digital age" where abbreviations and numbers or single letters are acceptable as words, the grammar rules have softened, for which I am thankful. I probably overuse exclamation points and "..."; but they are usually always included in anything written, and my favorite symbol is "~". I see it as a pause in written conversation ~ when a period really isn't necessary. Or maybe it should be a period and a new sentence ... Mom!?!?!?

Thank you again to Blair for tagging me and hopefully this inspires you to think about how versatile YOU are ... we've all been uniquely created for unique purpose, share your versatility with those around you!

Blessings,
Angie

Photo credits ... Wal-Mart; Carrie; True Grit; Grammar; Unbroken; Organization

Tender

2011-06-07T21:58:00.000-05:00

I have new neighbors that I have wanted to meet for a while, but the timing hasn't worked out when I have seen them outside. In fact, I wasn't sure if I had a neighbor with a caretaker or neighbors who were a couple. He an elderly gentlman I noticed enjoying outdoors in a courtyard area, she a companion, always by his side while also, I'm sure, enjoying a breath of fresh air. I told my Mom about this gentleman, that I wondered if he liked dogs, would Barney brighten his day, would there be an opportunity to meet them and befriend them. They are not my typical neighbors, and I was drawn to know them.

I've always observed "older" couples, ones who have an unspoken language, ones who enjoy each others company without saying a word and ultimately seem content with each other. What is it about them? An older couple on the dance floor are always my favorite, the "longest married" at a wedding who are the last on the floor while celebrating newlyweds to the couple at a no-name dance hall who can tell stories of the joint from their youth. There's something about couples dancing together who have danced through life.

Today, I met my neighbors, he unspoken, she tenderly stroking his hair while giving me the first glance into their life. Having left their home to come here for medical care they have endured months in ICU and years in Assisted Living care; she never leaving his side, they never spending a night apart. Leaving behind a producing farm, their home. She just getting a kitchen again having been able to move out of assisted living and to an apartment. Their 45 year wedding anniversary approaching and she loving him all the same, even when the ways he can show love back have drastically changed. She speaking truth over me of God's provision, not even knowing that I needed it today. He petting my dog, and giving a sly smile. She inviting me over for a visit, me blessed more than she will ever know.

It happens to be the 4th anniversary of my Grandma's death today, she a servant to my Papa through ups and downs, and he now alone. He has amazed us all learning his way around the kitchen, making cornbread and steaks, picking up a dust rag, and doing laundry, all things she did for them for 50 plus years until she physically couldn't any longer. I am fortunate to have watched love modeled in my home growing up and in the home of my Grandparents - none perfect, but today I was reminded of that love.

Ultimate love is only shown in a glimpse on this side of heaven. Perfect love was made known to us through Jesus. I am always reminded of that love when I see couples from young to old who sacrificially love, just like Christ loved the church. He delights in us: his bride, He sings over us: his joy, He pursues us and woos us to him: his ultimate love. My hope is that both you and I feel tender love of the One who loves us most.

Timing is everything - divine, not chance.

Blessings,
Angie

~ Wedding Song ~

2011-04-29T08:43:00.001-05:00

... started this post a long time ago, but it's a historical Royal Wedding day, so decided to finish/publish ...

I've never been the girl that has her wedding planned or kept Brides magazines awaiting Mr. Right. I've always thought the groom was a significant part of what the wedding will be, so until the groom is found, I haven't planned the wedding. I have had the privilege to stand beside multiple friends as they said their vows and have attended even more weddings, always loving the uniqueness of each couple. I love details, so talking through the big, ie: vows/commitment and the small, ie: candy bar treats is fun conversation with prospective brides.

I believe in marriage as designed by God with Christ and the church as the model in Scripture for marriage. Further than not being a planner, I don't have "a list" of requirements either. Who doesn't want someone they find attractive, humourous, genuine, trustworthy, kind, and on and on?! Everyone has the same list! I do have 2 requirements in a mate ... one shallow, one deep.

I updated my iPod recently and found a song by duo Joey + Rory. They are a married couple who sing country music together, songs that capture the life of a husband, wife and family ~ traditional and lyrics of truth. One perfectly caputred my ideals of a mate ...

Born to be Your Woman
Joey & Rory

You’re my man, and I’m your woman

Where you lead me, I will go

I will stand strong beside you,

No matter how hard the wind might blow

Our love will last forever, like this diamond on my hand

Cause I was born to be your woman, and you were made to be my man

You’re the breath in my body

You’re the blood that’s in my veins

You’re my strength when I grow weary

You’re my shelter when it rains

Our love will last forever, like this golden wedding band

Cause you were born to be my woman, and I was made to be your man

We are bound by God forever

We’re part of a bigger plan

Cause I was born to be your woman

And I was made to be your man

More about Joey + Rory ~ http://www.joeyandrory.com/about.html

Love,

Angie

wHo ARe yOu?!

2011-02-04T15:33:00.002-06:00

One of my favorite questions that my late friend Amy used to ask strangers or new acquaintances was "Who are you?". It produced a myriad of responses, never predictable and often stumped individuals who tried to quickly give a clever response. Sometimes Amy would ask "who are you?" on any given day to her friends and family, which always produced entertaining responses.

I recently shared some random facts about myself with a new Bible Study Class I'm teaching for them to get to know me and thought I would share here as well. Some of these I came up with myself and others I solicited my besties for random facts about me, hence the "I" and "You" below. After reading, de-lurk and include a random fact about who you are in the comments!

I love breakfast!
You the Owner & Operator of "The Bus"
I iron all my jeans
You belly laugh
I separate silverware in the dishwasher
You always have your Buc-ee’s cup (or Tervis Tumbler!) filled with water!!
I am a Champion hay hauler and Rodeo Queen
You love volunteering your time, for the benefit of others and the community
2011 is my 3rd year to participate in the Komen 3-Day ~ a 60 mile walk for breast cancer
You are the only person I know that has a steering wheel cover (all the time)!!!
I reference my closest friends as “besties” and my nephew/nieces “The Littles” or “The Little People”
She loves happy hour! Particularly the Sonic kind.
I blog, Facebook and Tweet
You enjoy a good day fishing (never mind making awesome cobbler to go with the days catch!!)!! :)
My happy place is on a boat, at a ranch or in small town USA
You like country music, you ride horses and you wear big jewelry!!
I feel like Nike Tempo Shorts and a Hanes v-Neck are appropriate for almost any outing/activity
Can pull off more bling than the average girl ~ the bigger the better.
I prefer 3” heels
She loves Bangles, Boots and Barney dog!
I love fountain Dr. Pepper and always drink out of a straw
She has watched the Bachelor/Bachelorette religiously for the last few years (to clarify: since Season 2).
I love live music, but I do. not. sing. Rather, I make a joyful noise.
I keep a calendar of my life everyday
You are Honest...to a point that some might call it a Fault....but that’s what I love about you!
I’ve been in 2 country music videos, a commercial and a TV pilot filming
I’m a list maker
My Mom wants you to know … my first vehicle was a 1979 GMC Heavy Half Pick up with dual exhaust/glass packs.
I’m single.

Several of my friends included comments regarding my character which I am hesitant to include, but they would probably ask why I didn't ... the answer being because I would rather show those traits to you than tell you them about myself.

You are a faithful follower, disciple and Fisher of mankind! My loyal friend!
Amazing friend who sticks by your side when going through tragedy :)
You are a loyal friend! ;-)
The most wonderful and faithful friend.

Thank you to my besties who do encourage me and live this life with me day in day out!

So, in the spirit of Amy ... who are you Reader?

Blessings,
Angie

Light

2010-09-12T21:33:00.004-05:00

A few weeks ago I had the privilege to sub in a Bible Study class at Second Baptist for a friend and was teaching on 2 Corinthians 3-5. I focused on Chapter 4 and Light ... after teaching it was lesson that really stayed with me and I wanted to capture my thoughts ...

The word "light" occurs 245 times in the Scripture with various, though significant meanings. Paul authored the letter to the church in Corinth after his own encounter with light. Acts 9:3 Now as he went on his way, he approached Damascus, and suddenly a light from heaven flashed around him. This was the beginning of Paul's conversion from persecutor of Christians to teacher and preacher of the Word. As I was studying this text, "light" was recurring in the text and I wanted to dig in.

The center of our lives is often HOPE; hope in the future, hope for change, hope for restoration, hope for love, hope for money, hope for acceptance, hope for success and hope for _________.

LIGHT gives answer and promise to HOPE:

Light of Gospel -- 2 Corinthians 4:4 the light of the gospel of the glory of Christ, who is the image of God.
The events of the Gospel are often what we believe to be the Gospel - - 1st Cor 15:3-4 – Christ died for our sins in accordance with the Scriptures, that he was buried, that he was raised on the third day in accordance with the Scriptures. However, the Glory of Christ - the image of God - is the good news of the Gospel! A spiritual light that shines because of Christ and his redemptive work. As a sinner, we are lost with no hope. God begins to move in our lives, to call us to Him, oftentimes unbeknowst to us, through circumstance, encounter, person or event. Eph 1:17 God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of glory may give you a spirit of wisdom and of revelation in though knowledge of him, having the eyes of your heart enlightened, that you may know the hope to which he has called you. The light of the Gospel begins to shine on our hearts, illuminating a need for everlasting hope; a light that can not be seen with the physical eyes.
Light in Heart -- 2 Corinthians 4:6 let light shine out of darkness
The heart that is lost is dark; with no permanent light. 2 Corinthians 4:3-4 And even if our gospel is veiled, it is veiled only to those who are perishing. In their case the god of this world has blinded the minds of the unbelievers, to keep them from seeing the light of the gospel of the glory of Christ, who is the image of God. The god of this world is Satan; who encourages us to fill our hearts with temporal pleasures attempting to fulfill a permanent void longing for everlasting hope. Upon recognition of sinful self and acceptance of Jesus the heart has eternal hope and the void begins to fill with the One who created the heart with a purpose to love Him. John 8:12 Again Jesus spoke to them saying “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will not walk in darkness, but will have the light of life”
Light to World - - 2 Corinthians 4:5 For what we proclaim is not ourselves, but Jesus Christ as Lord, with ourselves as your servants for Jesus' sake. For God, who said, "Let light shine out of darkness," has shone in our hearts to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ. But we have this treasure in jars of clay, to show that the surpassing power belongs to God and not to us.
As believers in Christ, Christians have a treasure entrusted to us, mere "jars of clay" to "give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God" to the world around us. The world who is lost and without hope, just as we were before the light of the gospel pierced our hearts and took residence. We are called to show people who Christ is. John Piper explains it best: "... if you feel average or less than average in your sense of fitness to tell the gospel, you are the person God is looking for—a clay pot, who simply shares the treasure of the gospel, not the glitzy intellect, not the glitzy eloquence, not the glitzy beauty or strength or cultural cleverness. Then God will do his work through the gospel, and the surpassing power will belong to him and not to us. Be encouraged, ordinary Christian. You are appointed, precisely in your ordinariness, for the greatest work in the world: showing the Treasure of Christ." "Light" in this context is to "render evident" - to show evidence to a world where your hope comes from. 1 Peter 3:15 But in your hearts set apart Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect,.
Light Affliction -- 2 Corinthians 4:17 for this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison
As followers of Christ we are not promised an easy life, we will endure affliction, but we have eternal hope despite the affliction. This world and our lifetimes seem long; but in the eyes of God this is but a blink of our eternity with Him. As Christians when we endure affliction we demonstrate our hope in eternity and belief in Christ. When a non-believer is faced with affliction (ie: illness, loss, death, financial, relational, family) the remedy is often self-help and resolutions which are product of the god of this world, Satan. Our position as Christians is to encourage the non-believer to see the hope that we have, to be a light in the world looking for hope. The ultimate affliction - death on the cross - was endured for you and for me, and not only endured, but endured with joy Hebrews 12:2 the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross.

In a world that seems to constantly be longing for the "next big thing" to satisfy I am more and more aware how people are just longing for hope in something. The LIGHT is the only HOPE that will bring peace to all circumstances in life - the good, the bad and the ugly.

The light of Christ has given my heart hope and I want the world to see that there is hope ~ together as jars of clay we will endure this brief life as a means to an eternal fellowship with the King of Kings.

This little light of mine, I'm gonna let it shine.

Thankful, SO Thankful

2009-12-16T21:40:00.003-06:00

January 8th - December 7th, 2010 ... a season of waiting, learning, challenge, fear, growth ...

What a year it has been! I thought this would be such an easy post, I kept thinking "I'm going to get to announce to my faithful family and friends that I have a job again" over and over ... and it would be another month, another interview, another promise, and nothing delivered. Though, finally, the week before Thanksgiving The Planet called with an offer and I went back to work on December 7th! Thanksgiving - what a great week for it to all work out! My mind is still reeling and processing from the year.

The most common asked question this year: What have you been up to? I am going to blog separately to answer that question - so stay tuned for that. In short - I have been given the gift of time. Time to think, time to be thankful, time to spend with family, time to spend with friends, time to pray, time to study, time to explore, time to discover, time to be still, time to dream, time to question, and ultimately a test of my faith time and time again.

From the very beginning it was my prayer that my life would be used as a witness through this period, however long it would be. Though, I never thought that long! When telling the story that I was laid off, I was always amazed at how "devastating" people would presume that scenario to be. I couldn't help but think this is such a small setback in the grand scheme. I still have so much to be thankful for.

When meeting people the most often asked question after getting your name is: "so, what do you do". Depending on who was asking - sometimes I simply answered "I don't work" and most of the time "I'm looking for a job". As the months added up of life without a job I began to hate that question. Mainly because what you "do" has no definition to who you really are and secondly because so many people were in the same boat. Bottom line, I think it is really a shallow question, and have tried to train myself not to use that as the 2nd question when getting to know someone.

Throughout this journey I have been reminded to really look for and see God in the details. He orchestrates and works things out to the very nth-detail. The position, the opportunity, the people, the location, the hours and on and on are all turning out to be the very things I was praying for all along. I have been reminded again and again of how my prayers are answered - and to be looking for the answers - and not just for what I think the answer should be.

All in all, I am thankful.

Thankful for my relationship with Christ. For unconditional love, for acceptance, for peace, for provision, for protection, and for HOPE. The things of this world nor the status of a job will never satisfy me like the love of Christ.

Thankful for the Word. So many verses have helped me get through these days ... Is 33:6 - Ps 90:14 - Matt 6:34 - Ps 16:5-6 - Ps 73:25-26 - Luke 1:45 - 2 Thes 3:5 -1 Peter 3:15 - Zep 3:17 - Micha 6:8 - Ps 18:1 - Heb 12:11 - Josh 1:8 - Rom 12:12 - Heb 4:16 - Lam 3:22-24 - Ps 34:4-5 - Ps 1:3 - 2 Cor 4:17-18 - Luke 2:10-11. All verses that I am working on memorizing.

Thankful for my parents. Who have loved me, prayed for me, given to me, provided for me, encouraged me, comforted me, been frustrated alongside me, and celebrated with me - through this and every season of my life. Through this particular season I was reminded of when my Dad was laid off while I was in College and how I watched my parents gracefully and faithfully endure that circumstance. I saw their faith in action and also learned how important it is to have Christ as the center of your marriage. They are role models to me and I am blessed with them!

Thankful for my friends. Who have loved me, prayed for me, checked in on me, given to me, encouraged me, been frustrated alongside me, and celebrated with me. The hours I have spent during this year over breakfast and lunch tables, going on walks, out on a boat fishing, taking weekend road trips, laying out by the pool, hanging out with stay-at-home Moms and their babies, going to church, watching sports, going dancing and so many more things are memories that will last a lifetime and time spent that was a gift to me!

Thankful for my church. The body of Christ in action, over and over pouring out themselves to me and for my life.

Thankful for my health. Throughout this year I have been reminded over and over how precious my health is and I thanked God for it. There would be days that I questioned if something catastropic was coming to my own life because nothing seemed to be working out and what if something bad was coming. Thankfully that fear didn't overcome me and I was healthy because most of the year I didn't have insurance. Throughout this year I have spent countless hours in a hospital, talking with, and praying for friends dealing with catastrophic health circumstances. Lives that have been turned upside down due to death, cancer diagnosis, or other sickness. Being without a job seemed so trivial compared to what others were dealing with.

Thankful for my nephew and nieces. "Tuesdays with Tole" - while Casey was pregnant with the twins I spent most Tuesdays with Cole (who refers to himself as Tole, c's are t's at 2 years old). We went to the park, the zoo, Kemah, to run errands, on picnics, and played toys for hours on end. When Casey went to the hospital to have the baby girls we went to see Mama and Dada at the Dr and to love on those baby sisters. Gracie Ann and Lily Kate arrived June 22nd, about 6 weeks early and stayed several weeks in the NICU. I was able to go by and visit them often, talk to them, hold them, feed them, and love on them. Even further I was able to spend the night with them when they were home for several weeks to give Casey a night or two of sleep in a week. The firsts of what I hope will be many slumber parties! Thank you to my Brother and Sister-in-Law for sharing your family with me! There is nothing like the innocence of the child to remind you of what really matters in life.

Thankful for work. After getting up on Monday mornings for weeks and months on end to start over on the work search, I am thankful to get up on Monday and have a place to go to work. So many friends have been in this same situation and many still are. I began to really be angered by the number of people who have a Facebook Monday morning update of "I hate Mondays". I pray that I will be sensitive that there is always someone wishing they had work to go to.

There are so many more things, this could go on and on.

For the first time in my life I feel like I have a "5 Year Plan" -- which I laugh at just thinking about, we all know what happens when we make a "plan". He changes it. So, I term that loosely and am fully confident that it will change and I will be more of who I have been called to be and hopefully reflect more of who's I am as every week, month, and year pass.

"Thank you" doesn't seem adequate, but if you have been part of this journey - I am truly humbled by your care and compassionate spirit and am thankful that you have walked these days with me and confident that you will continue to do so. May each of your lives be richly blessed because of how you have blessed mine.

Love,
Angie

I hate cancer.

2009-11-17T15:37:00.002-06:00

I hate cancer. But, I love the human spirit, the power of faith, family, friends, the will to fight like never before, the resiliancy of the mind, body, and soul, the stories to come, the lives you will touch, the opportunities to show love to others, and the power of a great God in giving you peace.

This year the 3-Day was different for me. It seems in the last year I have come to know more and more people being diagnosed with cancer - some winning and some not. This disease seems to know no boundaries, it seems no one is safe. With my dear friend Karrie just being diagnosed with Breast Cancer the Arizona 3-Day hit just a little too close to home.

Along the trail we passed elementary school children taking a break from their school day on Friday to cheer on the walkers. I thought about children who lose their innocence due to a diagnosis of their own, or of a parent, or a sibling, or a schoolmate.

We walked through neighborhoods decked out with signs supporting their neighbor in the Breast Cancer fight. I thought about how important it is to have a support group, what it means to check in on someone, to have the opportunity to pray for them, to cry with them, to laugh with them, to take a meal over, to send a card, to be a good neighbor. After all we're called to that in all circumstances.

We met a couple - BOTH of their daughters diagnosed and lost to Breast Cancer, one just this year. I thought about parents losing children - I've witnessed 2 of those in my lifetime at the loss of dear friends. Death is cruel. But, good comes from it - people choose to make a difference in the lives of others because of what life has dealt them. So that maybe someone else doesn't have to endure the same suffering.

It doesn't seem fair. Though the thought that was constant to me is that no matter the situation, I am thankful for God who gives peace in all situations. I was just studying this "peace" with my Small Group....

When Jesus arose from the grave and greeted his disciples, he said "Peace be with you!". When Thomas doubted it was him, he again said "Peace be with you!". With an excalmation point - he was intentional. Over and over Jesus offers this greeting. What is this peace? This world offers what it thinks to be peace for it's people, though all of it is temporary, fleeting, and disappointing because it will not sustain over time. It is false joy, false hope, false love. "But the world cannot offer false peace. It can offer peaceful settings and rituals to conjure up peaceful thoughts ... but not true soul contentedness. The peace that flows despite circumstances can only be found through Jesus being with us. In other words Jesus is saying "You can walk through anything, My sweet follower, if you realize that I am peace and I am with you."" **

I don't consider it chance to think of that while walking 60 miles over 3 days. Up hills, through cold, heat, sun, rain, neighborhoods, over freeways, on sidewalks, on trails, in the desert and the mountains. Isn't that life? We never know where the road is going to lead - cancer or not - peace can be with you no matter the diagnosis in your life.

As we were finishing the last 10 miles on Saturday we were in several miles of drizzling rain. I kept looking for blue sky and telling my teammate that I could see the blue sky coming over the horizon. I didn't want her to quit, I wanted her to finish, to see that hope was coming our way. That day - it was literally about the rain vs. the sun. But, in life, we can always find a little bit of blue sky to be thankful for in hopes that soon it will overtake the rain and shine glorious over our peace filled lives.

May peace be with you,
Angie

** Taken from "Becoming More Than A Good Bible Study Girl" by Lysa Terkeurst

Sunshine & Rain

2009-11-14T19:54:00.001-06:00

Day 2 started off with rain ...though we were thankful to not be in the sun all day! We came into camp with beautiful blue skies about 3 pm! Feeling good on Day 2 after massages, showers, dinner & now laying in the tent with feet elevated on my suitcase.

Today leaving lunch was an older couple handing out business type cards - with photos of their daughters - both lost due to Breast Cancer. We saw them a couple more times & again right before coming into camp happily cheerins us on & saying "we'll see you tomorrow!". I could have shuffled more miles today for reasons like that - it makes you forget about the pain of feet, legs, & hips.

Along the route today we went through a neighborhood decked from one end of the street to another for Trisha; a neighbor, friend, mother, sister who has breast cancer & is participating. I told my teammate I was glad Trisha wasn't close to us b/c I don't think I could have handled it.
The weather is forecasted to be great tomorrow & our team is ready to finish. Thank you again to our donors! We wouldn't be here without you!

Here's one pic of the Arizona sky today as I was laying on a mat stretching out....

3-Day -- Day 1

2009-11-13T20:05:00.000-06:00

Today was a great day on the route...we determined the difference between a Texas mile & an Arizona mile is the humidity!

Favorite part of the day...a red velvet CUPCAKE just before lunch. :). Happy!!

Opening ceremonies were amazing as usual; a Survivor standing right in front of me & the reasons why we're walking parading through with flags - mother, wife, friend, aunt, grandmother, husband, for futures, anniversaries, celebrations - it is raw & real.

This year with a friend due to start chemo in 2 weeks - it is real. Karrie - you were on my heart!!

Tomorrow has the promise of foothills & inclines; so the miles might be longer tomorrow. Pray for our team - pray against blisters!

20 down & 40 to go!! :)

For such a time ...

2009-05-26T11:19:00.003-05:00

I recently completed Beth Moore's Esther Bible Study -- it has been a great study, and I recommend it if you're looking for a study. I wanted to share a quick thought ...

I have always loved the study of Esther, her character, her willingness, and obedience. Most famously referenced from this book is Esther 4:14 "... And who knows but that you have come to royal position for such a time as this." I always thought circumstances in our lives could be looked at in hind-sight for "such a time as this" and see what lessons I learned, how God was speaking, or why I was put in such a position.

In the midst of Chapter 8 Esther has asked the King for him to spare the Jews and she wants him to reverse the decree Haman previously gave to destroy the Jews, which would include Esther and her beloved uncle Mordecai. King Xerxes tells Ester he has already given her Haman's estate and hanged Haman on the gallows, she can write the new decree and seal it with his signet ring.

In the study, Beth talks about how we are always looking for someone to be the perfect person for us, a hero, to be "gift" from God in our lives if you will. Someone who will never let us down. 1 Samuel 8:19-20 is about the Israelites wanting a King to lead them, someone to fight their battles. They got what they wanted, but it came w/ consequences. Beth writes "Humans are adept at finding ways to make what we want seem all about God. He not only sees the desires of our hearts, but He also looks straight into the heart of our desires and knows when we're asking - even accidentally - for a false Christ".

Esther was waiting for her husband, King Xerxes, to be her hero. To reverse the decree, to stand up for what is right, to take action, when instead he turned it right back to her - write what seems best to you, seal it with my signet ring, and it will stand. Most of us know, Esther was called, for such a time as this, to stand up and do what God called her for. No one else was going to do it. I often times wait to see who or what else will fill the calling I have been called to, instead of stepping up to it myself. The reasons for that are too numerous, but oftentimes something seems to hold me back.

I distinctly remember Lisa Beamer speaking and referencing "for such a time as this" from Esther when Flight 93 went down on September 11, 2001, killing her husband Todd. What seemed to the world to be perfect: a loving husband, great marriage, family, children, and baby on the way, was ripped away from her. However, she stood tall and strong, heroic even to me, for such a time as this, and demonstrated, who was her true hero, sustainer, comfort, peace, and restorer of joy.

"God is jealous for our true enduring hero to be His own Son." He lets others be disappointment to us, let us down, not deliver, not fulfill, and leave us empty for us to awaken and realize the only hero who will will never disappoint, never let us down, always deliver, and always leave us fulfilled, is Christ. This isn't about a romantic love -- it's any relationship, position, title, service, ministry, money, or otherwise that we put hope in, or want to be our hero.

We are each called for such a time as this. No one else or thing can be or accomplish what each of us are called to do. We need to examine our hearts to know the desires and to be challenged that those desires are not seeking to replace, or be, Christ in our lives, instead of responding to the calling for each of us at this time.

Love,
Angie

Beth Moore - "Esther" - available through Lifeway Bookstores

TRUTH: Mistakes Erased

2009-02-06T13:14:00.002-06:00

When I was a child, I always did my homework at the Kitchen table after school with a snack. Little Debbies were my favorite! :) I was very fortunate that my Mom was a stay-at-home Mom and with us after school to check and help with homework. In the early days of my learning to write, erase, and correct my mistakes, I remember Mom telling me to erase completely and ensure my work was neat.

I recently ran across a geometry project from middle school that I have kept (reasons unknown, don't judge) which has a note from my teacher "These were a pleasure to grade". I looked back over them and thought about learning to take pride in my work, a lesson learned very early on at the kitchen table. I, to this day, am still aware and particular when taking notes and turning in something handwritten. I want to be "neat" as I feel my writing is representative of me.

As I thought about erasing, and making sure I had erased everything completely before I re-wrote I began to think about my life in Christ. His forgiveness of my sin being the ultimate eraser. That task alone takes an unlimited supply of jumbo size Pink Pearl erasers. However, when He does erase my sin, the paper of my life is completely restored and clean, ready for us to continue writing my life, past forgotten, focused on the future, mistakes erased, completely forgotten.

Sometimes this parallel is more than I can grasp. I still think I need to go back, erase again, start over on an entirely new piece of paper, scratch out, or wear down the paper so thin that it tears all in an effort to correct my mistake(S). However, the message is quite simple in His eyes ... "My grace is sufficient for you, My power is made perfect in weakness"; 2 Corinthians 12:9. Hummm ... only one thing is necessary for mistakes on the paper of my life to be erased and again ready to continue the story - His grace. Grace which is freely given to me, it is my choice to receive it, with a repentant heart and desire to leave the sin behind and move forward chasing the truth.

Putting down my eraser, and believing grace is sufficient for me,
Angie

Divine 09

2009-01-21T20:13:00.005-06:00

A few years ago a dear friend and I resolved to have an annual theme instead of New Year's resolutions. So, far, they have worked pretty well ...

No More In '04
Comin' Alive in '05
Good Picks in '06
Savin' '07
A Great '08

And, this year ... "Divine 09"
I have to give credit to a long time friend over a quick Facebook Chat for "Divine" as I was working on my annual theme and looking for words that rhymed with "'09". Thanks #71!

What does "Divine" mean? According to the dictionary ...
-- Of or pertaining to God
-- Informal. extremely good; unusually lovely
-- of superhuman or surpassing excellence

So, what does Divine '09 mean to me?

It will be a year of and pertaining to God.
There are a few things that will encourage me this year to make it a year pertaining to God: Continued involvement in my church and Bible Study class which I teach. A scripture memory challenge from a favorite Bible Teacher. Time spent in the Word. People who encourage and mentor me to be more like Christ.
I will fill my life with things that are extremely good and/or lovely.
Jesus ~ My family ~ My friends ~ My puppy ~ Sonic drinks ~ The Outdoors ~ Exercise ~ The 3-Day for Breast Cancer Research ~ Volunteering ~ Eating Cupcakes ~ Rodeo Houston ~ Reading ~ Traveling ~ Live Music ~ Laughing out Loud ~ Taking pictures ~ Playing my Guitar ~ Drinking coffee ~ and many more ...
I believe at the end of 2009 I will look back on a year of surpassing excellence - Divine all the way around!

As I set this theme I remember thinking -- this is risky; to claim and pray for a Divine '09 ... you never know what you will get and/or the bumps in the road that will come. I do know I have eternal HOPE and that no matter what comes; I have stability, security, wisdom, and the love of Jesus to sustain me. Funny how divine He is ... this is/was my first memory verse:

Is 33:6 ~ He is your constant source of stability, He abundantly provides safety and great wisdom. He gives all this to those who fear him. (NET)

Bump in the Road # 1 ... Jan 8th - Layoff.
Though this is not ideal; a layoff is not the end all. I am healthy and able to work. I have a great network who have humbled me with their generosity of time, referrals, and prayer for my next job to come. Above all, my identity is in Christ; He is my stability. My identity is not in my job, not in the US Economy, not in the new President's promises for change, not in the amount of money in my bank account, not in the way I look and not in what the world says I should be or do. What freedom!

May your '09 be Divine,
Angie

Tagged - The FIRST Time! :)

2008-11-30T18:19:00.004-06:00

I was tagged for the first time (Jacquie please don't exclude me from future tagging due to my tardiness) to post the 6th picture in the 6th folder in My Pictures...so here it is.

Since "My Pictures" is a bit ambiguous I'm going with the 6th picture in the 6th folder (June) of 2008 ... stored under the "My Pictures" folder on my computer ...

Kelly, Stolle, Helen, and Me - classic self-portrait-group-shot at the Columbus Music Festival. It was a hot day out, but great music, and great times with good friends! I love live music and festivals! :)

Feeling popular for being tagged,

Angie

Guess Who ....

2008-11-30T18:10:00.003-06:00

... is going to be a BIG brother ??

Cole is!! My brother and sister-in-law are expecting and I'm praying PINK!! :) A little bundle will be here late summer 2009! I can't wait to hold another baby ... niece or nephew I can't wait! :)

A very happy Aunt!

Angie

FINISHED, but really, the journey is still going!

2008-11-23T19:34:00.000-06:00

Wow. We are done, and loaded on the bus to head back to our hotel. Can't wait for showers, dinner, and a bed!

Friends, for your prayers I am forever grateful! I made it through blister free and minimal aches & pains that worked out daily. Our team has suffered through a lot of pain, one even in the hospital, and one 6 months pregnant! Though we finished strong linked arm & arm!

The closing ceremonies were amazing. Our team was awaiting closing where survivors came through for line-up. We high-fived each one through tears, and mutual respect for the 60 miles, but our hearts overflowed at their strength!
Our walk, raised $11 MILLION to Research to end the Breast Cancer fight for our friends, sisters, mothers, and daughters!

So many thoughts to process! More to come...stay tuned!

About to unlace my tennis shoes,
Angie

Fire & Cupcakes

2008-11-22T21:49:00.000-06:00

Last night, in a moment of being pro-active against sore-muscles, I put BenGay on my legs. Around 12 am, I woke up on FIRE!! I woke up my tentmate trying to figure out how to put out the fire...turns out a wet-wipe did the trick. Removing the flaming BenGay. It was a long night.

Day 2 seemed to go a lot faster, and we had some great views of beaches, Bay, & San Diego River along our route. Our team is suffering today, and we all have quite the strut walking on the way to dinner with sore legs.

Along the route there are tons of posters, people cheering, families of walkers & survivors. Today, there was a little boy on a corner with a poster simply stating "You saved My Aunt". This is why we're walking.

Mile 18.5 had a Pit Stop today where water station was touting homemade cookies on the next table. Cookies really aren't my thing, but on that table was a little box....of CUPCAKES. I practically wept in thanksgiving for the hands who made those cupcakes. I might have skipped to the finish after that treat, or at least I did in my head....

Snuggling down in my tent,
Angie

Day 1 done!

2008-11-21T18:25:00.000-06:00

Just got into camp, and praise and thanks for Billy who set up my tent!

This morning was an amazing opening ceremonies followed by send off 1 by 1 through chute, following 8 survivors!

Today took 8 hours, 11 minutes from the chute to camp today, but that includes several pit stops, hour lunch by the beach, and what we're estimating to be about 5,000 walkers mostly on sidewalks resulting in pretty slow pace! The final mile today was around Mission Bay, it was beautiful.

Rumor has it we need to hit the road early to avoid the crowds, so that's our plan tomorrow.

My teammates are coming in & we're looking forward to pasta dinner tonight!

More tomorrow, keep praying for no blisters and our hips!
Love,
Angie

About ready to zip it up ...

2008-11-20T00:26:00.003-06:00

... my suitcase that is! I'm heading to the 3-Day Today with Team 36D Red Dirt Rockettes!!

24+ weeks ago I signed on for the 3-Day; a 60 Mile walk to raise money for Breast Cancer. I can't believe it's here.

As I look back on the past 24 weeks so many thoughts, memories, friendships, struggles, pain, and fun come back to mind. In the midst of training for this walk, life has gone on as well. I wouldn't have made it to this point without the generosity of my family and friends. Those who have given of their money to Breast Cancer Research, their prayers for my preparation and physical well being, their encouragement for long walks, and those who have walked along side me in training. I am so blessed with amazing family and friends who support me! There isn't a way to thank you enough for getting me to this point.

This weekend (Friday, Saturday, and Sunday) when you get out of bed and your feet hit the ground, would you pray for our strength for the day. When you are walking throughout your daily chores, tasks, errands, shopping, and exercise would you pray for our endurance and our physical health throughout our 20 miles that day. (We'll cover 60 miles total!) And, when you walk back to your bed each night, would you pray for rest for us as we're camped out in the 3-Day Campground.

Beyond this weekend, when you're walking around, would you remember to pray for friends and family members of our team who are fighting Breast Cancer! Pray for strength, for endurance, for physical healing, and rest for them day after day.

I'm hoping to update the blog each night; so check back through the weekend for our progress!

See ya after the first 20 miles!

Angie

PS ... There's still time to donate as well, click here!!

10.10

2008-10-10T21:36:00.002-05:00

a date that is forever etched in my mind and heart; along with 3.20.

I was 20 the first time it happened, and 30 the second time; losing best friends in car accidents.

Today, in honor of my sweet friend Amy Myers, 10 things I loved about her and the friend she was ...

Becoming a "SIR" ... Jennifer and Amy took me in as a 3rd sister and truly were and are like sisters to me. "SIR" is derived from "soeur"; meaning "sister" in French; they had their own adaptation and let me in on their sisterhood.
The endless laughs of Amy turning to a stranger and asking "Who are you?" and turning back around laughing out loud at their blank/shocked stare.
Giants and Little People
BAAAASSSSTTTT - and sore throats from yelling with the other Beasts.
Amy-isms .... Bronco's, "What's your news?", being gathered, "I'm SWEET", & "Get your 'dawgs up!"
Afternoons turned into evenings spent on a patio visiting over cocktails; times I would give anything to have back
When Amy saw the real me and declared "I always thought you were sweet, but you're NOT! You're FUN!"
A Texas wall map I got for Amy to track our random road trips to small towns across Texas
Late night pranks
Amy being a sister in Christ; a dear friend who left a legacy of faith. And, God who has tested my faith through heartbreak and loss, but gently reminds me through my sadness that I will be reunited with my SIR when He calls me home. Oh, what a joyful day that will be!

Missing my SIR,
angie

Hill & Valleys

2008-08-27T21:26:00.004-05:00

First ... a quick update. My blog and I have been fighting. I tried to do a "simple" update to my page and give it a cute new look, but being that I am technology challenged, it wasn't simple and I thought I lost my Blog. Apparently my work computer isn't friends with Blogger as the button I needed didn't appear until I logged in on my home computer. Perhaps that is a lesson in itself, checking the Blog while on the clock ... I digress ...

I was home a couple of weekends ago with my family for a dueling birthday celebration, remember Mom and I have the same birthday, and it was a great weekend! We had a full house ... Papa, Aunt Malia, Andy, Casey, & Cole, Uncle Ronnie, Aunt Alice, and my Cousin Ronnie plus the 4O's; a house full of love! We had such a great time outside on the porch, playing with Cole in the yard, delicious eats and treats and I didn't want to leave on Saturday! However, a 70's Roller Skating Party was on the calendar for Saturday night and I couldn't miss out!

While I was home I needed to do a training walk for the 3-Day. (If you don't know about the 3-Day, it's a 60 Mile walk which raises money for Breast Cancer Research. I am walking in the San Diego event, November 2008.) My "long walk" is up to 10 miles and I had carefully mapped out my walk and headed out to Elkins Lake, a neighborhood I have spent many an hour in growing up. Side note ... if you need a tool to map runs/walks/bike rides anywhere in the US visit http://www.mapmyrun.com/!

As I was saying, Elkins Lake holds a special place for me for many reasons. Mostly; I logged thousands of hours babysitting in that neighborhood from the time I was 13 until after I was out of college. My second babysitting job was in Elkins; for a sweet 6 week old baby girl Taylor; when I was a mere 13 and her Mom a fabulous 24! For those of you quickly doing the math based on my previous post of being 32 ... Taylor is now in her 2nd year of College, and her Mom is still fabulous! Time flies, and I realize that ages me to say that.

Taylor and I spent many an hour in Elkins, walking the neighborhood, swimming at the Olympic Pool, riding the Golf Cart, playing games, watching Blue's Clues, and in the blue rocking chair. 4 years later Taylor's little sister Jesse, the 4th O, was born and she probably had the cutest cheeks I have ever seen on a baby! All three of us still did those same activities, including going to the movies, TCBY, the College, and other outings when I was mobile and driving!

In college I did a lot of jogging and Elkins was one of my favorite places to run. I would often run before or after a babysitting job; and enjoyed the neighborhood, filled with trees, lots of hills, quiet streets, the Golf Course, and sightings of deer along my route. I remember that running was an outlet for me .... to pray, think, dream, process, and talk with God. I remember running hills and pushing myself to the top with the thought "what goes up must come down" as my motivation.

As I set out a couple of weeks ago the memories kept coming to mind along my 10 mile walk. I thanked God repeatedly for the part those families had in my life through their children but also through modeling of a Christ-centered marriages. I also thought about all the changes in my own life through those 9 years from Junior High to High School to College, and where I was today; 10 years out of college. As I was walking those hills, I kept thinking again "what goes up must come down" and at a walk pace the hills seemed even longer than jogging, not to mention I'm certain my age has nothing to do with it! ;)

I began to think about the "hills" in life; when you feel like you are constantly climbing, and the top of the mountain, the descent, or the ability to coast downhill seem so far out of sight or non-existent. In fact thinking back on my walk, I don't really remember ever feeling that downhill coast after reaching the top of the hills. I often times in life find myself acutely aware of my struggles when I am climbing hills, but don't seem to remember the seasons when life is "coasting". I believe God pushes me, tests me, challenges me, and teaches me most in the times I am climbing hills in my life.

Through one of the last hills I climbed in my life, I clung to Hebrews 10:23 - "Let us hold fast the profession of our faith without wavering; for He is faithful that promised". To break this verse down I wanted to define the parts:

hold fast - Greek "κατέχω" - v; keep secure, keep firm possession of
profession - Greek "ὁμολογία" - n; whom we profess to be ours
faith - Greek "ἐλπίς" - n; joyful and confident expectation of eternal salvation
without wavering - Greek "ἀκλινής" - adj; firm, unmoved
He is faithful - Greek "πιστός" - adj; one that can be relied on
that promised - Greek "ἐπαγγέλλομαι" - v; to engage voluntarily

To make this verse my own based it would read like this:
I will keep firm possession of the expectation of eternal salvation which is mine. Voluntarily He promised that to me, and He is reliable.

I still find myself asking God "why" in scenarios; being afraid for what might come; not hearing from Him; and wondering if I am doing what He intends for me. Thankfully God understands me and allows me to "work out" my questions, fears, and doubts, but ultimately reminds me that He is the always faithful and constant in my life. The times I do waver; when I am not firm; when I allow the world to move me; I quickly realize I am climbing a hill to get back to the place where I am truly secure. Lord may those hills seem shorter and the descents sweeter because of your presence, but teach me to hold steady when I am climbing the hills.

Keep Climbing!
angie

I'm a blogger ...

2008-08-11T21:59:00.003-05:00

... and wonder where this blog will go! Stay tuned!

As a long time blog reader, I think it's blog-etiquette to "introduce yourself", so on the eve of my 32nd Birthday, here are 32 facts about me ...

I was born on my Mom's Birthday, a bond that I feel very honored to share with my role model Mom!
I am a proud parent of a 2 year old Bichon, BARNEY!
I am beyond thrilled to be spending my birthday eve watching 2008 OLYMPICS!
I didn't play team sports, I rode horses.
I have a new cupcake addiction.
In 1996 and 2006 I lost best friends due to car accidents.
I became an Aunt on 05.28.07 - one of the greatest blessings in life to date!
Last weekend I celebrated my 8th anniversary as a member at Second Baptist Church!
I have become a reader; a fact my Librarian Mom is proud of considering I was one who made it through High School & College on Cliff Notes alone
I love small towns, ranches, cowboys boots, eating wild game, hunting, and all things country!
Michael Phelps just won his career 11th Olympic Medal (9th Gold)!!
(I know that's not about me, but this is history in the making and I'm watching it ... cut me some slack y'all!)
I probably over use exclamation points!
I love jeans and t-shirts.
14 is the number of years my best friend and I have been bff's.
I hate to dust and pull weeds -- my chores growing up.
My first car was a 1979 GMC Heavy Half truck; equipped with hand-me-down glass packs from my brother.
I have recently broken the habit of snoozing to the last possible minute and allowing myself a great gift of time in the morning in the Word.
I am learning to play the Guitar!
I love everything about Mexican Food!
I had my tonsils out this year.
My family nickname is "the girl".
I am technology challenged, but sell software for a living.
I don't get too into politics, though after participating in a NPR Presidential interview I think I'm more passionate about it than I thought.
I was never allowed to say "bored" growing up, b/c there was always something I could be given to do.
I love spending time with my friends!
I'm training for the 3-Day, a 60 mile walk in San Diego to raise money for Breast Cancer Research!
My first job was babysitter, I am a certified Safe Sitter.
I was a Rodeo Queen and I still like to watch pageants. I even got to judge one this year!
Accessories are my favorite!
I love life in my 30s!
I love Jesus.
I know the truth. You shall know the truth and the truth shall set you free.

When I started this I couldn't think of 32 things about myself, but now there are so many other things, but those are for another time, another post.

GO TEAM USA!
angie